Being in this path was NEVER my first choice. Studying the thing which you sometimes don't have any idea of it is vain (at times). I had never been exposed to this such thing so called Bachelor of English Language and Literature during high school -.- SESERI :) When I was there, we have been exposed to a lot of science courses. Well, the most popular would be MEDIC :P and of course few others like Engineering, Accounting and many more which yang orang selalu sebut-sebut tough course tuuuhh! and I DIDN'T CHOOSE them.
To tell you the truth, I was so sad when I received my SPM result! :( yelah, just imagine people really have have high expectation towards SBP students. and yeah, saya masih ingat semuanya! menjerit-jerit kegembiraan, bersalaman, ucap tahniah. sedih, Allah saja yang tahu. toleh kiri, dia dapat 10 A. toleh kanan, dia dapat 10 A jugak... OMG, takpalah. cuba mencari kekuatan. at that time, I told myself to be patient. BE PATIENT.
So, in May 2010 I registered myself at Centre for Foundation Studies IIUM :) doing foundation there for one and a half years. owh ramai jugak yang bertanya, dulu kan Science stream, kenapa tak buat medic ke? Okay, bukan tak boleh makcik, saya yang dah taknak >.< I still can go to Matriculation College if I want. but this is MY CHOICE. and yeah at that time, I told myself, Insya'allah this is the best for you. BE PATIENT!
I know many people will say, you're taking English? blaja ape je? TESL ke? and so on so forth. and a lot think that ENGLISH is very very easy course! you're so wrong man! we are not studying the grammar and comprehension just like in primary and secondary school. it is more than that. this course has always challenge my mind. and of course, I learnt a lot of new things.
After one and a half years of toil and pain, HERE I AM. International Islamic University of Malaysia. still furthering my study in English :) so cool. haaa, yay or nay? the same thing happen. ramai jugak tanya, best tak blaja English? eh blaja apa je? susah tak? lemme tell you, I really enjoy what I am studying now. they are all easy to learn, fun to know but HARD to score! gulppp. tak percaya? pergi lah tanya budak BENL dekat UIA berapa ramai yg DL?
However I always believe that there's always something good in what Allah has planned for you. you just gotta work hard, put efforts as much as you can and pray to Allah :) the picture up there. it was during my Drama Performance 2012. it was one of the best memory ever in my life. we were given the chance to act in front of people. banyak la bakat-bakat terpendam tu terserlah masa ni. Who knows? *owh rindunya nak berdrama lagi* (^_^) this is the fun and exciting part despite the pain and hardship we have to go through.
Enthusiasm. we need it in every single thing we do to show passion, interest and to keep everything going. the subjects are getting difficult day by day. to me, wherever you are, whatever course you are studying, it has its own level of difficulty. there's no such thing as easy and simple as ABC in this world right? but somehow, it depends on how you interpret HARD! for some people, it can be easier and for some, it can be the toughest.
BENL. Done year one! How fast time flies. After all, I survived. Insya'allah will survived for another 3 years. Pray for me, would you? :) To the people out there who intended to take courses related to English major, goodluck. To stay in BENL, is to live in pain.*exaggerate much?* (it depends) ngee. Dear friends, struggle along the way, not the end of the journey :) Just be strong.